Hello. My name is Suzy and I’m a people pleaser.
I try very hard to be true to myself. To be authentic…just like Wise Oprah told me too many years ago. But old habits die hard. Dang it if I don’t always want to make people like me! Even at my own expense. It’s not like my life is some sad case where I’m forced to be a clown for others’ enjoyment. Although at times, I’ve come close to that. It’s more this unyielding need to make the world feel better. Be brighter. Bring comfort. I carry that responsibility on my shoulders…. like everywhere I go! I don’t know why. I don’t who gave it to me. Was it my mom? Was I born so self righteous that I thought only I was capable of bringing happiness to others. Yes. No, just kidding. I really don’t know. What I do know is that it’s a weight that is getting too heavy to bear.
I’m a full grown adult. If the wrinkles don’t clue me in, then the endless list of things to do does. Funny how it sneaks up on you. I didn’t feel like an adult for a long time. I was still same old Suzy. Trying to please her parents. Her husband. Her kids. Her inlaws, her sister, her friends, the teachers, the neighbors, the grocery store clerk, the stranger in the car in front of me. Really? Yes. Sick I tell you.
But this story has a happy ending. I think. See, there came a day when life got so full. So big and heavy and full that it took all of me to hold it together. Not just my spare parts, but every bit of me. That’s today! Well…all of 2013 and part of 2012 to be completely honest. And I am now! Today I relinquish my title. I don’t want to, nor can I be a full time people pleaser. What does this mean?!!! Well, it means the world gets the Suzy that is usually forbidden to leave the house. My family knows her well. She’s a crazy mess of moods and attitude and love. And now she is free! Maybe nobody was fooled but me anyway…but still. I’ve said my peace. And you’ve been warned.
So that’s it. No pleasing ending. I told you, I’m done with that!
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