Looking Forward

I don’t remember when I made the decision, but I do know it was a conscious one. 

Look forward, not back.

It doesn’t mean I don’t try to remember the past, but I try not to dwell on it. What’s done is done. What happened, happened. Good or bad, I try to remember the lesson or meaning from everything I’ve experienced and use that to help me make better decisions in the future. 

The last couple of weeks have been tough, with lots of infrequent and painful events happening at the same time. They’re testing my mantra. I want to look forward to get past the painful parts. But should I? Am I doing myself a disservice by not dwelling enough on the past (or even the present) and squeezing every ounce of meaning from these events? Am I hurting others by seeming uncaring or dismissive?

I don’t have the answers. There is only one path, and that’s the one I take. I’ll never know for sure where another would have led to. That’s life in a nutshell. 

I can only hope that my true intentions and feelings are felt by others. And I take solace that these painful events are only painful because at their peak they were so positive. I will remember both the highs and the lows, but I will move on to find new experiences. Looking forward, not back. 

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John Higley

John Higley

I'm a software developer, working remotely from Richland, WA, working on solving the many issues of managing financial services products on the web. I'm fascinated by the user experience of web sites and applications and read way more than I should. Working on effectively sharing knowledge and ideas has become a recent, but burning, passion.

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